LYNNEST :)
20
blissfully attached
wild & crazy
GOD :D
my desires
perth trip
20 mar 09
80gb black ipod classic(maybe not)
white shorts
pretty shoes
black jeans
new tops
new bag-sling/tote
Chatterbox
Friends
minhui
wenbing
priscillia
debra
juliana
huiling
grace
minhui(MI)
jiayu
huishi
jiachyi
Important Dates - 2008
1 jan 08: In love:), dear depart for tamworth
7 jan 08: his 21st birthday
30 jan 08: RQ is BACK
7 feb 08: release of A lvl results
21 feb 08: mum's bdae
23 feb 08: airshow 2008
9 may 08: RQ's sending off event
10-12 may 08: genting with RQ
19 may 08: RQ depart for perth :(
4-6 july 08: genting
5 aug 08: sch commence
26-29 sept 08: perth
18 nov 08: 21st birthday
past entries
-July 2008-
-August 2008-
-September 2008-
-October 2008-
* Thursday, October 2, 2008
today is a terrible day for me....
on the train from orchard back to jp, i felt like crying
tears were fighting their way out, but i hold it back.
life hasn't been beautiful for me or maybe its just me?
i really dont know. i am lost, confused, alone.
school hasn't been what i expected it to be. it's so individualistic.
or maybe i am just too used to classroom's life?
or maybe too used to having lots of friends fluttering around?
i really don't like the 'lonely' life there.
it's not that i dont have friends...everything just seem so different.
and i have been staying at home almost everyday in a week.
i dont even know what's wrong with my life now.
i am just so lost. sigh sigh sigh sigh..
and my dad. just as i thought "wow! finally he is changing.."
BOOM! he hit me real hard again. oh yeah. HOW GREAT!
in addition to the devastating mental state i am in,
nokia just add more anger in it. -.-
how can one possibly repair a phone consecutively for 3 times?!
ask me! and i can tell you more..
seriously, what's wrong with nokia phones?!
i went to wheelock twice and the phone is still faculty!
i am just boiling, boiling in anger...
and i even rushed down from school, feeling hungry
oh well.. a hungry man is an angry man.
but in this case, i am a woman. O.o
anyway, rushed to jp to mail boyfriend his game cause he is confine for the weekend.
but he called to say dont send.. and i got worried.
my thoughts are proven right.
women's sixth sense; dont under-estimate it.
he called to tell me he isnt doing well.
and he might be coming back like tmr?
sigh. my heart kinda sank.
i do hope he will do well tmr.
but yet at the same time, i want to see him.
dilemma? ya.. spot on.
i want him to pass. but judging on things, it seems unlikely.
i dont know how to encourage him, how to motivate him.
suddenly, i feel so useless.
all i can say is "jiayou" but what's the point?
i bet it doesnt help at all.
what is really wrong? sighhhhhhhhh..
this is super super gloomy entry.
everything just seem so wrong.
i prayed for him.. but.....
at this rate of accumulating more anger and sorrow,
i probably burst out...
and yes, i cried just now.
finally... i am able to let it flow.
feeling so so tired and worried..
hope everything will go well tmr..
sigh....
he just told me he is feeling stressed.
honestly, i am too. :'(