LYNNEST :)
20
blissfully attached
wild & crazy
GOD :D


perth trip
20 mar 09
80gb black ipod classic(maybe not)
black berms
tote bag
black stockings
black pumps
white shorts
pretty shoes
NIKE waterbottle
get darker
change hair colour
black jeans
new tops
new bag-sling/tote




minhui
wenbing
priscillia
debra
juliana
huiling
grace
minhui(MI)
jiayu
huishi
jiachyi





1 jan 08: In love:), dear depart for tamworth
7 jan 08: his 21st birthday
30 jan 08: RQ is BACK
7 feb 08: release of A lvl results
21 feb 08: mum's bdae
23 feb 08: airshow 2008
9 may 08: RQ's sending off event
10-12 may 08: genting with RQ
19 may 08: RQ depart for perth :(
4-6 july 08: genting
5 aug 08: sch commence
26-29 sept 08: perth
18 nov 08: 21st birthday


-July 2008-
-August 2008-
-September 2008-
-October 2008-

this week has been an enjoyable week for me :)

monday - met up with mindy and then the gb girls.
tuesday - school and then the gb girls
wednesday - met up with grace for swimming and then baz came
thursday - stayed at home and relax
friday to sunday - cell retreat! :D
ooooo~ so excited!! HAHHAHHAAA!

somehow, it's a blessing to bum at home.
though it gets boring at times,
but at least i have time to meet people :)

baby, i hope you will not be upset.
i apologise for not being able to accompany u for the 3 weekends of this month.
but rest assured, i am still contactable.
except for the camp in malacca.
but i will try to get roaming alright?
i will still text you, so be happy (if you're sad).
take care and see you on sunday!

oh yeah, it's friday! :D

boyfriend's outcome? UNCERTAIN.
hahaha.. the airplanes were faulty. lol.
maybe it's a plan from Him?
so now, you have more time to study.

i couldn't sleep last night,
so i prayed and read the bible :) so happy!

i went to gekpoh mac to meet huishi, esther, jiachyi, abigail and xueyi.
they're really a joy to be with :)
had a chat with huishi too.
and she sent me a text just now, it touched my heart!
i am glad that i've the opportunity to know them better.
they came over to my place and we watched Passion of Christ.
once again, it touches me, for the eighth time.
huishi, things will be okay. i love you
and like you say, my shoulders will always be available for you to lean on.
smile, my dear.

sometimes, the younger one always receive unfair treatment at home.
whatever the older one cant do, the younger one will have to do it.
just now, i voiced out my opinion. oh yeah, i HATE unfairness!
but... i was scolded. seriously,whatever!
ultimately, i know i will lose but at least i said it.
keeping it inside makes me feel uber upset!
learning to love the unlovable......
verdict: TOUGH, IMPOSSIBLE, UNBEARABLE!
but, i am learning.
guess it takes time................................ argh!

today is a terrible day for me....
on the train from orchard back to jp, i felt like crying
tears were fighting their way out, but i hold it back.

life hasn't been beautiful for me or maybe its just me?
i really dont know. i am lost, confused, alone.
school hasn't been what i expected it to be. it's so individualistic.
or maybe i am just too used to classroom's life?
or maybe too used to having lots of friends fluttering around?
i really don't like the 'lonely' life there.
it's not that i dont have friends...everything just seem so different.
and i have been staying at home almost everyday in a week.
i dont even know what's wrong with my life now.
i am just so lost. sigh sigh sigh sigh..
and my dad. just as i thought "wow! finally he is changing.."
BOOM! he hit me real hard again. oh yeah. HOW GREAT!

in addition to the devastating mental state i am in,
nokia just add more anger in it. -.-
how can one possibly repair a phone consecutively for 3 times?!
ask me! and i can tell you more..
seriously, what's wrong with nokia phones?!
i went to wheelock twice and the phone is still faculty!
i am just boiling, boiling in anger...
and i even rushed down from school, feeling hungry
oh well.. a hungry man is an angry man.
but in this case, i am a woman. O.o
anyway, rushed to jp to mail boyfriend his game cause he is confine for the weekend.
but he called to say dont send.. and i got worried.
my thoughts are proven right.
women's sixth sense; dont under-estimate it.

he called to tell me he isnt doing well.
and he might be coming back like tmr?
sigh. my heart kinda sank.
i do hope he will do well tmr.
but yet at the same time, i want to see him.
dilemma? ya.. spot on.
i want him to pass. but judging on things, it seems unlikely.
i dont know how to encourage him, how to motivate him.
suddenly, i feel so useless.
all i can say is "jiayou" but what's the point?
i bet it doesnt help at all.
what is really wrong? sighhhhhhhhh..

this is super super gloomy entry.
everything just seem so wrong.
i prayed for him.. but.....
at this rate of accumulating more anger and sorrow,
i probably burst out...
and yes, i cried just now.
finally... i am able to let it flow.
feeling so so tired and worried..

hope everything will go well tmr..
sigh....
he just told me he is feeling stressed.
honestly, i am too. :'(

this morning, i was awake by boyfriend's phonecall.
it's nice hearing his voice in the morning :)
after talking to him, i went to have breakfast with mummy.
mummy kept saying she want to eat lots of different food today.
in the end, we had porridge. O.o hahahha
after that, we went to shop around and to the supermarket.

i bought dragon fruits for boyfriend's parents,
cause was thinking of dropping by his place to get his game cd and shirt.
initially, i thought of getting it and leave.
i was kinda afraid of going his place without him.
thankfully, jieling encouraged me and i prayed along the way.
so finally, i reached his place and surprisingly, i went in.
i had a nice chat with his mother and sister.
we sat down at the dining table and talked abt bf, hair colour, school, online shopping, etc.
it was the first time i talked to them without him around.
around 4, i left his place cause mummy was at home alone.
i felt very proud of myself that i have the courage to do it.
boyfriend is proud of me too!!
he never expect me to do it cause i am scared of his parents.
oh well..... thank God for the opportunity :D

as i am typing this entry,
my very very very petty and immature brother stormed into my room
he demanded that i hang the laundry because my dad helped me tonight.
being me, i asked,"where should i?"
and he started screaming and yelling.
immature? yes. very.
since he wants to be so calculative, i said "i always helped u to keep the laundry."
surprisingly he replied "i am working!"
seems like i ought to do it, which is totally not, so i said "that's totally none of my business"
i cant be bothered with him. it's just keep the laundry!
a super ultimate extremely immature conversation - over the laundry!
why am i always being taken for granted?! argh!!
that argument took away my happy feeling. *SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSS!!*

baby, tmr sending parcel! :)
anticipate for it...... HAHAHHAHAHA!
off to prepare for school tmr