LYNNEST :)
20
blissfully attached
wild & crazy
GOD :D
my desires
perth trip
20 mar 09
80gb black ipod classic(maybe not)
white shorts
pretty shoes
black jeans
new tops
new bag-sling/tote
Chatterbox
Friends
minhui
wenbing
priscillia
debra
juliana
huiling
grace
minhui(MI)
jiayu
huishi
jiachyi
Important Dates - 2008
1 jan 08: In love:), dear depart for tamworth
7 jan 08: his 21st birthday
30 jan 08: RQ is BACK
7 feb 08: release of A lvl results
21 feb 08: mum's bdae
23 feb 08: airshow 2008
9 may 08: RQ's sending off event
10-12 may 08: genting with RQ
19 may 08: RQ depart for perth :(
4-6 july 08: genting
5 aug 08: sch commence
26-29 sept 08: perth
18 nov 08: 21st birthday
past entries
-July 2008-
-August 2008-
-September 2008-
-October 2008-
* Friday, August 8, 2008
it's been a week at school. i enjoyed it.
i realized taking the initiative to talk to others isn't my forte.
but i'll try my best. ha. hope so.
2 days in school isn't enough. not at all.
i thought it was a blessing, a 'fun' thing to just study 2 days.
now, it's a disaster to me!
1 chapter per lecture. 1 lecture per week.
21 chapers in total. 21 lectures before examination.
i am taking, economics, accounting, maths, sociology.
so far...sociology and maths is driving me to insanity.
in order to do well, i have decided to resign from my current job.
i need the time, the energy to concentrate on my studies.
i do not want to waste the 24K and yet again, committing the same mistakes i've done before.
i really want to my mum proud of me, academically.
yes. baby, you're right. university isn't that easy as i thought.
baby is taking his flying test now. :s
i am feeling jittery. i wonder how he will fare.
if he fail, he will be back to singapore on sunday.
if he pass, he will continue and move on to the next stage.
he kept assuring me that nothing bad will happen.
and even if he fail, it's okay because he will be able to see me.
my silly one :)
i want him to pass but yet, i want him to come back.
oh well.....
actually, for the past few days, i've been feeling very troubled.
i cried, i prayed, i tried to make myself happy..
but nothing seems to help.
i do not know what to do. i really don't know.
sometimes i wished God didn't create me.
however, when i see the people around me,
i am thankful that He gave me the chance to live.
i am facing lots of pressure. pressure i instill upon myself.
i am tired. exhausted. jaded. stressed. depressed. confused.
what's wrong with me?