LYNNEST :)
20
blissfully attached
wild & crazy
GOD :D


perth trip
20 mar 09
80gb black ipod classic(maybe not)
black berms
tote bag
black stockings
black pumps
white shorts
pretty shoes
NIKE waterbottle
get darker
change hair colour
black jeans
new tops
new bag-sling/tote




minhui
wenbing
priscillia
debra
juliana
huiling
grace
minhui(MI)
jiayu
huishi
jiachyi





1 jan 08: In love:), dear depart for tamworth
7 jan 08: his 21st birthday
30 jan 08: RQ is BACK
7 feb 08: release of A lvl results
21 feb 08: mum's bdae
23 feb 08: airshow 2008
9 may 08: RQ's sending off event
10-12 may 08: genting with RQ
19 may 08: RQ depart for perth :(
4-6 july 08: genting
5 aug 08: sch commence
26-29 sept 08: perth
18 nov 08: 21st birthday


-July 2008-
-August 2008-
-September 2008-
-October 2008-

this week has been an enjoyable week for me :)

monday - met up with mindy and then the gb girls.
tuesday - school and then the gb girls
wednesday - met up with grace for swimming and then baz came
thursday - stayed at home and relax
friday to sunday - cell retreat! :D
ooooo~ so excited!! HAHHAHHAAA!

somehow, it's a blessing to bum at home.
though it gets boring at times,
but at least i have time to meet people :)

baby, i hope you will not be upset.
i apologise for not being able to accompany u for the 3 weekends of this month.
but rest assured, i am still contactable.
except for the camp in malacca.
but i will try to get roaming alright?
i will still text you, so be happy (if you're sad).
take care and see you on sunday!

oh yeah, it's friday! :D

boyfriend's outcome? UNCERTAIN.
hahaha.. the airplanes were faulty. lol.
maybe it's a plan from Him?
so now, you have more time to study.

i couldn't sleep last night,
so i prayed and read the bible :) so happy!

i went to gekpoh mac to meet huishi, esther, jiachyi, abigail and xueyi.
they're really a joy to be with :)
had a chat with huishi too.
and she sent me a text just now, it touched my heart!
i am glad that i've the opportunity to know them better.
they came over to my place and we watched Passion of Christ.
once again, it touches me, for the eighth time.
huishi, things will be okay. i love you
and like you say, my shoulders will always be available for you to lean on.
smile, my dear.

sometimes, the younger one always receive unfair treatment at home.
whatever the older one cant do, the younger one will have to do it.
just now, i voiced out my opinion. oh yeah, i HATE unfairness!
but... i was scolded. seriously,whatever!
ultimately, i know i will lose but at least i said it.
keeping it inside makes me feel uber upset!
learning to love the unlovable......
verdict: TOUGH, IMPOSSIBLE, UNBEARABLE!
but, i am learning.
guess it takes time................................ argh!

today is a terrible day for me....
on the train from orchard back to jp, i felt like crying
tears were fighting their way out, but i hold it back.

life hasn't been beautiful for me or maybe its just me?
i really dont know. i am lost, confused, alone.
school hasn't been what i expected it to be. it's so individualistic.
or maybe i am just too used to classroom's life?
or maybe too used to having lots of friends fluttering around?
i really don't like the 'lonely' life there.
it's not that i dont have friends...everything just seem so different.
and i have been staying at home almost everyday in a week.
i dont even know what's wrong with my life now.
i am just so lost. sigh sigh sigh sigh..
and my dad. just as i thought "wow! finally he is changing.."
BOOM! he hit me real hard again. oh yeah. HOW GREAT!

in addition to the devastating mental state i am in,
nokia just add more anger in it. -.-
how can one possibly repair a phone consecutively for 3 times?!
ask me! and i can tell you more..
seriously, what's wrong with nokia phones?!
i went to wheelock twice and the phone is still faculty!
i am just boiling, boiling in anger...
and i even rushed down from school, feeling hungry
oh well.. a hungry man is an angry man.
but in this case, i am a woman. O.o
anyway, rushed to jp to mail boyfriend his game cause he is confine for the weekend.
but he called to say dont send.. and i got worried.
my thoughts are proven right.
women's sixth sense; dont under-estimate it.

he called to tell me he isnt doing well.
and he might be coming back like tmr?
sigh. my heart kinda sank.
i do hope he will do well tmr.
but yet at the same time, i want to see him.
dilemma? ya.. spot on.
i want him to pass. but judging on things, it seems unlikely.
i dont know how to encourage him, how to motivate him.
suddenly, i feel so useless.
all i can say is "jiayou" but what's the point?
i bet it doesnt help at all.
what is really wrong? sighhhhhhhhh..

this is super super gloomy entry.
everything just seem so wrong.
i prayed for him.. but.....
at this rate of accumulating more anger and sorrow,
i probably burst out...
and yes, i cried just now.
finally... i am able to let it flow.
feeling so so tired and worried..

hope everything will go well tmr..
sigh....
he just told me he is feeling stressed.
honestly, i am too. :'(

this morning, i was awake by boyfriend's phonecall.
it's nice hearing his voice in the morning :)
after talking to him, i went to have breakfast with mummy.
mummy kept saying she want to eat lots of different food today.
in the end, we had porridge. O.o hahahha
after that, we went to shop around and to the supermarket.

i bought dragon fruits for boyfriend's parents,
cause was thinking of dropping by his place to get his game cd and shirt.
initially, i thought of getting it and leave.
i was kinda afraid of going his place without him.
thankfully, jieling encouraged me and i prayed along the way.
so finally, i reached his place and surprisingly, i went in.
i had a nice chat with his mother and sister.
we sat down at the dining table and talked abt bf, hair colour, school, online shopping, etc.
it was the first time i talked to them without him around.
around 4, i left his place cause mummy was at home alone.
i felt very proud of myself that i have the courage to do it.
boyfriend is proud of me too!!
he never expect me to do it cause i am scared of his parents.
oh well..... thank God for the opportunity :D

as i am typing this entry,
my very very very petty and immature brother stormed into my room
he demanded that i hang the laundry because my dad helped me tonight.
being me, i asked,"where should i?"
and he started screaming and yelling.
immature? yes. very.
since he wants to be so calculative, i said "i always helped u to keep the laundry."
surprisingly he replied "i am working!"
seems like i ought to do it, which is totally not, so i said "that's totally none of my business"
i cant be bothered with him. it's just keep the laundry!
a super ultimate extremely immature conversation - over the laundry!
why am i always being taken for granted?! argh!!
that argument took away my happy feeling. *SCREAMSSSSSSSSSSS!!*

baby, tmr sending parcel! :)
anticipate for it...... HAHAHHAHAHA!
off to prepare for school tmr

haven't been keeping updating on "what's happening" in my life.
minhui says "your blog is dying..."
alrighty! i'm here to revive it! :D

couples of weeks(after sep 4) has been really mind-torturing.
days were spent or rather wasted on doing nothing.
have been occupying myself with drama serials and movies.
good life eh?!!
*shake head* life like this is meaningless and aimless...
i wonder how long am i going to live like that!
i need a meaning, i need a purpose! :S

i was at clementi mrt station on thursday, waiting for grace.
and, i was reading a book "dance for your daddy"; its really a good book!
the author's mother was forced into prositution by her husband,
she had a very bad-tempered and abusive father, etc.
i wonder why did God created us but yet at the same time created such people around?
and also, why is people in third countries suffering? (maybe they are happy with their lives, BUT...)
why are people unwilling to bless such people with their riches?
thinking of all this, i have the sudden urge to go cambodia.
a couple of days back, my friend's personal msg on msn was "it feels so great to live lavishly"
sometimes, i really wonder where is the fairness in life....

on a lighter note, i have been spending time with my friends and i enjoyed it! :)
i was chatting with mindy on fri..
mindy: your passion always inspires me
mindy: n ya love for everyone
mindy: amazing
mindy: immense!
lynnest: hahaa.. i really dint realise abt tat.
i felt so so so encouraged by her. really..
however, i find it difficult to love somebody - my brother.
it's just so so hard.. i've tried, but i failed.

ytd i went for my cousin, josel's 21st birthday.
she shared a very heart-warming testimony.
and today, pastor shared with everybody that my bdae is coming.
HAHAHAHAHAHA! i am excited!
i guess it's time to share about my life in and out of church, for the first time.
i was thinking of asking mummy to share..
just now, i told mummy i am going to make her cry on my birthday!
i do hope so..

lately, boyfriend's flying hasn't been really good.
judging from the messages he sent me.
i guess i've a part to play.. all the arguments we had.
i don't know whether it affected him.
i am sorry about it. really sorry.
ytd night, he went clubbing..
i felt like a mother overnight.
i couldn't sleep at all. i was worried cause he was drinking alcoholic drinks.
and i think in large quantities.
i was afraid that something bad will happen to him.
worse of all, he is in a foreign land..
at 6am, i managed to fell asleep....
i can understand how my mum feels when i go home late!
HAHAHAHAAHA... it's tough being a mother :)

bye bye

[edited]
yea, like wad boyfriend tagged.
i am suppose SUPPOSE to be in perth this weekend.
so what am i doing here in SINGAPORE?!
HAHAHHAHAHAA! oh well...

read jiayu's blog just now.
indeed, i miss millennia. tons and tons!
we used to say how great it would be to graduate from the school.
but now i totally totally miss it!
i miss the uniform days, the tak-glam days, the grapevine days.
time always passed so fast when i'm in school.
i really miss the closeness i shared with my girls.
in SIM, no closeness, no love, no happiness.
i wanna go back to MI!! i really want to *pouts*

today wasn't really a bumming day for me.
i went out with germaine to bugis despite the heavy rain
she's nice to cab down to my place to fetch me :)
it was an enjoyable trip, i must say.
at least i have sth to do.. hahahaa...

today boyfriend nv msg me till now :S
guess he is too busy to entertain me. lol.
he sounded quite happy in his message cause he is able to fly solo
i am really happy for him.
GOOD JOB! *GRINSSSSSSS*

anyway, i am so gonna upgrade my phone's software!
THE LATEST VERSION IS E!
and mine is only B! -.-
vivo city, anyone??? *pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

another BUMMING day!
met germaine at jp.
i bought a green top :)
wanted to get a pair of shoes @ charles & keith.
but they dont have my size. oh man :(


i was happy that you nudge me when i went online.
it's because you seldom do it. hur hur hur..
i believe you will improve too!
i have 100% confidence in you!
YOU CAN DO IT!

i am back from tuition :)

i was reading bing's blog.
and yes.. indeed, God is working in JCC.
eversince the dialect service started, things has changed.
it's just......AWESOME :)

to BING:
"YES! we'll be friends no matter where we are!"
i really enjoy my friendship with you. i really do.
we always have endless topics to talk about.
never once we have a moment of silence.
i am thankful of having a sister like you.
and you really really got me excited! HAHAHA!
i am glad to be part of your happiness.
i want you to be happy at all times.
i love you, sis!

currently, i am feeling words-blocked.
plenty of thoughts to pen down but i don't know how.
i don't know which words to use.
i don't know how to construct my sentences.
oh well, i will just keep it to myself.
emotional me, again.